this is 25

first day post Julia

six months since Julia left. time is fake as shit, it feels like so much longer. but also that it just happened. I only just woke up to my mom screaming. It’s been years since it happened. I can hear her still. I’m still on the porch, and it’s been years since I’ve even set foot in our old home.

I miss you so much, Julesy. Love you forever and then some. And then some more.

one year gone. more flowers have arrived. I’ll be stopping by to talk to you at the cemetery later. it’s sunny and warm and I already saw a butterfly. thank you and I love you and I miss you and I love love love you

where would we be without them

ah the world is so beuatiful and wonderfull peace on earth forever and foreevr

obsessed with this draft I never finished. where the hell was I going with this

this tweet hasn't left my mind once in the two years since it's been posted

This is terrible but today when I was playing volleyball outside with some friends one of their children (18 months) was sort of ambling around on his stumpy little toddler legs and so we were all trying to be careful and like not spike the ball onto the baby but then he wandered over to his father, who picked him up bc dad reflexes, and then the ball got passed over to the dad and he sort of had a no thoughts moment and instinctively used his child to smack the volleyball over to the next person. Like he just swung the kid and used his legs like a baseball bat. I'm never going to forget his face of premature regret mid baby-manuever right when he realized what he was doing AND the instant he realized his wife saw it happen. Anyway the baby was fine he didn't make contact with the ball all that hard and he was just mad his dad wouldn't use him as a club again but I had to sit down because I laughed so hard I cried.

My "Yes I have interiority" T-shirt has people asking a lot of questions already anwered by my T-shirt.

The "no i don't have interiority" t-shirt has people asking a lot of questions already answered by the shirt.

My "yes I have interiority, no not the person wearing me, I'm a sentient shirt" shirt has people asking a lot of the questions that the shirt can understand but is tragically incapable of responding to

humans don’t have enough ornamentation. where’s the plumage, the antlers

i could go for a good vibrant throat sac i could display as i sing in the mating season

Humans have some of the most extreme hair variation over their bodies in the animal kingdom, with hair on some parts of our body a few millimetres long and fine enough to be almost invisible, and hair in other parts a good metre long if not artificially trimmed. Part of the inside of our mouths are turned out to make our lips bright red, we have comically oversized breasts and lack penis bones to make erections more indicative of impressive circulation, and have some of the most complex behavioural adaptations to self-ornamentation for courtship seen in anything that doesn’t spend half its life collecting blue bottle caps. How much ornamentation do you want?

I’d like antlers, as previously stated

I want bioluminescence

I like when people say things like “respect blue collar workers!” and then the same people turn around and completely dismiss the years of training it takes to be able to do that type of work safely and effectively.

“Telling people not to do their own electrical work because it’s dangerous is classist bc not everyone can afford an electrician” “I can’t believe that plumber charged me so much money for less than an hour of work, what a scam!” “In the post-capitalist utopia everyone will just take turns doing all types of blue-collar work, instead of years-long apprenticeships we’ll just give them a course in high school or something” “Building and safety codes are just pointless bureaucracy meant to stop the average citizen from being able to build their own structures” “I would love to be a farmer and just hang out tending to plants all day”

These are all things I have seen on this website by self-proclaimed worker’s rights advocates and I hope I don’t have to explain how incredibly insulting and dismissive it is when it’s not outright dangerous. There’s a LOT that needs to be fixed about our current labor system but “pretending like training and safety protocols aren’t important” and “pretending that those jobs are actually really easy and any layperson can do them” are uh. Not good solutions.